Peace

Flash back to last year…

I’m gonna start off getting a little personal...are you ready?  Okay, my cycle runs about every 30 days or so, and can be quite squirrely sometimes, going as long as 40 days or so.  (If you don’t know what I’m talking about…don’t worry, you will.)  So when I went past my 30 days I started to wonder, “Hmm, could I be pregnant?”  So of course I HAD to get a pee test to check… it was negative.  “Okay, I guess I’m gonna go to 40 days this time.”  I say to myself.  So I go about my usual schedule, and forget about it, then my hubby asks me one day, “Did you ever start?”  I stopped what I was doing (think of the deer in headlights look), remembered that no I haven’t, and decide to take the second pee test in the morning.  Morning comes and I go do my thing.  Men have it easy sometimes…they can aim.  If you’ve ever done a pee test you know what I’m talking about, lol!  I wasn’t smart enough to use the container method.  I set the test up on the counter, and jump on Facebook while I wait my three minutes.  Three minutes goes by, and it reads…YES!  Okay, so I am pregnant!  I feel good about it, I’m not sick which is nice since with Gem it was 24 hours of non-stop nausea for three months.  I’ve been good about taking my Thyroid pill, yes I have been tired, but this explains a lot.  So going from my last cycle I calculated that I should be 8 weeks this week.  I make an appointment with my OB for Wednesday 9/25. 

On a side note, during work I listen to Moody Radio (http://www.moodyradioflorida.fm/), and at 2pm every weekday I listen to Revive Our Hearts with Nancy Leigh DeMoss (https://www.reviveourhearts.com/) Here is the transcription for the show that I am remembering during this time (http://www.reviveourhearts.com/radio/revive-our-hearts/all-well/). 

So, I get to my appointment, wait to see the doc, and he goes right to do the ultrasound.  My bladder is extremely full by now since you need to have a full bladder for a good image.  At 8 weeks you expect to see baby and heartbeat.  The ultrasound only shows the water sack…I see this and think, “Okay, where’s the little one?” but I immediately remember the reaction the Shunammite Woman had in 2 Kings 4. (see transcription above)  Shalom, Peace.  Peace is what she said and how she acted when her son died, and while she is going to the place where she could seek God.  Now in the story the woman places her son in the Profit’s bed, like an act of faith before setting out to see Elisha.  The doctor tells me that I will have a transvaginal ultrasound done the same day for dating and viability.  He is a little worried, but tells me that we probably have our dates wrong.  I get dressed, and ask my hubby to pray before we leave the room.  Praise God we can seek him through his son Jesus Christ whenever we want, and that I didn’t have to make a journey like the Shunammite Woman did.  We thank God for what he has done for us, we place our little one in God hands and acknowledge that he is in control.  The second ultrasound is set up for me at another facility, and we have time to eat lunch between everything.  During lunch I get a call telling me that they don’t do ultrasounds at that facility on Wednesdays, and that I will have to come to another place.  So, I make a new appointment and off we go after lunch.  It ended up being the same facility where I had the same ultrasound when I was first pregnant with Gem.  When we found out I was pregnant with Gem I was scared to death of losing her because of my previous miscarriages, so when we got to see her on the ultrasound and see her little heartbeat, I was 7 weeks at the time, it eased me a bit.  AND it ended up being the same tech that examined me with Gem, and this same tech has even done an exam on my hubby at one point. So, I feel even more at peace when I see her.  She remembers us and we update her on everything that’s gone on the past year.  She begins to do the ultrasound, and I keep an eye on her face.  Her face and her tone is also totally at peace, and very friendly.  She dates me at 5 weeks 3 days, which is just 2 days ahead of when she can see a heartbeat on her machine.  So we have to play the waiting game.  Again, I remember the Shunammite Woman and think peace, and pray peace into everything.  “Wait upon the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.” Psalm 27:14  So we make it through the week, and I’m getting more and more nauseous with each day.  As much as I hate how I feel I am happy because I know this is good.  We have the ultrasound and we see our little one, heart beat and all.  I’m 6 weeks 3 days and according to the machine that’s exactly where I should be with what they are seeing with measurements and such.  YEAH!!!  Happy dance!  As it turns out this little one has the same original due date that Gem did, May 25th.  Now Gem was moved up a week as I further progressed and she was born a week before that, but as it is now our second little one is still aiming for the 25th.  I don’t know how I would have reacted to all of this had I not heard Nancy speak about the Shunammite Woman.  I think I would have eventually went to peace once I realized there was nothing I could do, but it wouldn’t have been my initial reaction.  Isn’t that how it is most times?  We react from the flesh first instead of from the Spirit first.  Praise God that everything is going very well with little Anna, yes, it’s another girl, Daddy isn’t sure how to react to that, lol.  Now he has a house full of girls…even down to the dog!  I just smile at that since I come from a house full of women…he’ll probably want to find a cave 10 or 13 years from now, LOLOLOL!

 

Peace, Love, and God Bless.